Random statements

1. Doctor thinks despite break through bleeding, that i'm okay.. but because I was concerened refered me to a hospital to see a GYNO.. I don't know how I feel about that...
2. She thinks I should go on the pill, and see how I go and then decide about seeing the GYNO..
3. Possible endometriosis, I don't know how I feel about that... I don't really know enough.....
4.I will try and educate myself, but not think about it too much
5.. Abnormal Pap smear with HPV result, not related?
6. Tomorrow morning I am offically on Lexapro again. 10mg, we'll see how we go.. must admit.. I am taking this to help with the agression and sadness I am at times experiencing.. PRAYING to god that I don't have bad side effects, I didnt last time.. also preying it will help me to get up and going and possibly loose some weight.
7. I have lasted 6 days without talking to him, he hasn't tried to call me.. Only on email "I miss you, please call me"
8. I can't not yet, not strong enough but I will be.

9. I am feeling a bit funny in the tummy right now, I want a hot chocolate but i'm scared of what it will do to me.

10. I think thats about all, I'm going to start documenting my Lexapro takings and moods and stuff.. just a small note so If I reflect back in the future that I'll have something to look to.

An overeaction

I realised I probably over reacted last night.
I guess I was just a bit upset.
2 periods in one month.
BLAH

I am going to damn right insist that some more tests are done.
Despite the fact that they are uncomfortable, and i'll need time off work.
Which I really don't need right now.
SO busy.

Too many people in my family have died because they ignored the signs there body was giving them.
I will not be one of those people who sits back and says
"oh I think this thing will fix itself"

I remember reading an IF blog and someone speaking about being your own advocate.
I will be my own health advocate because at the end of the day who is really gonna know me, or know my body better than me.
No one..

Stay tuned..