Past, Present, Future

Dear 17 year old Caragh,
Your final year of school was one of the best of your life.
You were living it up, in a relationship that always made you happy.. but it wasn't so healthy. I wish you had studied harder in your final year. Your end results did not really justify the years you put into your school life.
I wish you had realised this at the time. You got yourself into a lot of trouble but it was always for a good cause. Standing up for what you believe in. I wish you had treasured these moments more because as you grow you sometimes get caught up in the politics of it all and keep quite to often. I hope that you treasured this year, and realised how lucky you were. I hope that all the little moments you experienced filled you with joy as they helped to sustain you over the rest of the years to come.
I wish you didn't doubt yourself so much.


Dear 22 year old Caragh,
Well hasn't the last 5 years thrown some massive twists and turns your way.
You have loved and lost, and then hit the rinse and repeat cycle and done it all again. Although none of these things make sense, they will seem to have greater purpose as you move through the course of your life. Don't be so hard on yourself.
Don't cut yourself to peices for what should or could have been. Everything happens for a reason, or so they say. Live that. Be proud of who you are, and keep your mind set on the things you want to accomplish. Smile and be joyful like you know you can be. Laugh and cry. Be a good friend, a kind daughter, a loving sister and a thoughtful colluege this things will help you through out your life.
Remember above all else to thy on self be true.



Dear 27 year old Caragh,
I hope by now some things in your life have changed.
I hope that you have done what you always dreamed of, and that you are in your second last year of this course.
Although its not something that burns through your veins, I hope you have travelled a little. Enjoyed some other cultures, met new and interesting souls. I hope that you took the time to listen to their stories as it will help you with yours.
I would hope that you have found someone. Someone who see's you for everything that you are, and everything that your not. But loves you regardless of that.
Be kind and paitent with those who are not with you. It makes them mad and will be an endless sorce of joy. I KNOW by now you are taking better care of your body, especially your mind. You will be less hung up on the flaws that you believe surround you and define you now. They don't. I hope that you have kept an open mind. I hope you live large, laughed lots and cried a little.
I hope that you will learn from the past, be hopeful about the future, and live in the present.


All my love,

Caragh