My inproductive and emotionally exhausting week

I dont know why its been that way.
Why I feel this way?
Why I feel hopeless?
Restless?
Tired?
Sore?

Why I hate myself for complaining..
That i'm not 100 % yet...
Its been almost 6 weeks on my meds.. most of the time.. im okay..
But I still have those moments of utter hopeless-ness.

I know there is no answer.
No time frame for when all of this will get better.

I feel like I have nothing to live for.
I hate this empty-ness.

I just want to feel, full.