Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Does it

Does it make me stupid for still caring?
Does it make me foolish for wishing all your pain away?
Does it make me a hypocrite to suddenly believe what your telling me is the truth. Your truth that is.

I am stupid.
I am foolish
I am a hypocrite.

But this is the thing about me.
The thing that makes me know that I'm not in capable of love.

I love deeply and without a sense of reason.
For the wisest words you have ever spoken were.

"Be true to YOUR heart, not my heart. Don't worry about me"
That's when I knew a part of your heart, was my heart and that it came back just the same way.
I know I am stupid, foolish, selfish, a little nuts and clearly in way to deep.

But I love you.. unconditionally and even when your belligerent.
Because that's who you are.
And really does anything else matter?

2 comments:

The Captain's Wife said...

Does it make me stupid for still caring? No it makes you human....

Does it make me foolish for wishing all your pain away? No it makes you human....

Does it make me a hypocrite to suddenly believe what your telling me is the truth. No....yet again it makes you human...

Caragh...you are so SO a normal young woman. You are dealing with the normal shit that we go through in our 20's. God to be in my 20's again....

My friend, my dear blogging friend....you write wonderfully..continue to express yourself here...

heyLyss09 said...

You have a huge heart, Caragh. And while that's a good thing, it also sets you up to be caught up on this emotional rollercoaster until some kind of change is made in either direction. Being stuck in limbo is pointless...I say either make yourself cut him off or try giving a relationship another shot. Otherwise, you're just running in place.