Friday, June 5, 2009

Part 2 Coming soon

After my cancer hell part one story last night. I felt very liberated.
I tossed and turned for a few moments then fell straight off to sleep.

I need to right more, about the weeks after my mums final diagnosis.
I also need to write about my dad a little more.
So cancer hell will come soon. I just need to be in the right frame of mind and do it justice.

I had a fair bit of work piled up for me at work.
Nothing HUGE. But all little things. They took me right up til 5pm to finish.

I am looking forward to this long weekend, and doing something constructive.
Like painting the spare room. I can only hope that my dad comes home on time tomorrow so I will have a few hours to get started before my friends hen's night.

I've decided im not going to buy something new to wear, just pick something old out of the wardrobe. Sex up my hair, make up and hope for the best.
I don't know where the night will take us!

After work I took myself out to dinner, I was going to see a movie but I decided not to. I wanted to come home and read my book.
Of course I got caught up on the interwebs, reading blogs and watching TV shows online I can't watch on TV.

But I'm going to finish before I head off to sleep tonight.

I'm glad my mind is clear for the first time in a few months.
I do feel normal, not like im riding a wave that's about to crash down into the bottom of the ocean.
I'm just floating, effortlessly..for the first time in a while.
I know that I deserve to be happy, but sometimes I still struggle with that concept.